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RUIN YOU FOR ANYONE ELSE
Humans and humans-in-everything-but-name tend to have a intrinsic selfish streak in them. Nothing to be ashamed of, some of that is needed for self-preservation. What's yours is yours. You keep your territory your own so you can have have what you require for survival. Simple as that; there's no real malice behind it. Food, possessions, the odd entertainment here and there, nobody can blame you for wanting to have a few things to call your own. But people aren't things you can have. No, stop that. I know what you're thinking. Usually, and in proper company, people aren't things you can have.
Still, there may be a little tug at your mind when you're with someone telling you that you wish and hope that you're the only one their thinking of. Nobody wants their lover to be fantasizing about others when they're together. Maybe some dark part of you wishes they never would think of someone else in that way, that they'd never be able to get off quite as well with anyone besides you. Ruining them for anyone else...that sounds so needlessly cruel, but you can't help but let it pass through your mind.
Whether ruination is a serious thought or only a harmless fantasy, at any rate, in this meme your character has a desire to absolutely blow their character's mind, making them forget about any others. Of course, your character may also want to hear this straight from the horse's mouth, so to speak...
- Comment with your character, preferences, and sundry. You're also going to want to include what role you're going to want to play, whether the "ruining" attempt is to be a serious one or just a lustful fancy, and any other related kinks you'd like to incorporate.
- Reply to others.
Loki | MCU | OTA
Also potentially interested in having him be ruined by someone else with magic to make him stop straying.))
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He'd said she'd be his, that she would learn to worship him as her god and give him everything he asked. Claudia did her best to fight, but there were times when she found herself giving in, just because it was easier. When she pleased him everything was better, and if he was in a good mood, he'd talk to her, or bring her a book to pass the time.
On the bad days, he'd taunt her with illusions, pretending to be the people she cared about, or making her think she was home, or anything else he'd managed to pull from her mind with his spells. All he had to do was break her so he could mold her to his will, and he'd have her, the Warehouse, Earth, and who knew what else. She couldn't relent, but she felt the cracks widening, weaknesses he'd helped create so he could force her to be what he wanted.
Bad day or good, she couldn't help but admit, at least inside her own head, that Loki fascinated her. It was the kind of fascination that one had with big cats, or other dangerous animals that you knew didn't see you as anything but a possible meal or entertainment. Still, there were elements of his personality that she would have liked, and in another situation, she might actually have wanted to get to know him. But pets only need to know that their master is pleased or displeased, and worshippers? She didn't know whether she could find a way to relate to him that would still give her a chance to remain herself. Claudia would never be a tool that he could just use and discard once she'd outlived her usefulness.
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Loki knew that he could have just tortured her into screaming submission, or cracked her mind like an egg and taken all the information he needed. But that...wouldn't have been effective, in the long term. He might need her presence, he might need her as an agent. More to the point, it would have been a waste. Claudia Donovan had a mind of enviable brilliance, something even he could admit was a work of art. He would break it if it became necessary, of course...but Loki didn't want it to become necessary. Far more effective if he just reshaped it a little.
She was little more than his pet, right now. Right down to the collar he'd magically fixed on her, right down to the way he was slowly training her not to bite. But she could have been so much more, as he didn't hesitate to remind her. He tempted her with secrets even the Warehouse didn't know, and sights that even its endless wonders couldn't match. If she surrendered before his patience ran out, they were promises he might even keep. Life could be better than this, if she just gave in. If she stopped being so unreasonable.
And he broke her down slowly, starting small and working his way deeper. Training her to accept his presence, perhaps even to welcome it after prolonged isolation in a windowless, featureless suite. He fed her, or she went hungry. She slept when he said so. Perhaps most importantly, he had been at work from the beginning slowly breaking down her sense of personal space, with carefully calculated intrusions and touches - signs that were undeniably possessive, invasive, but fleeting, the better to allow them to quickly seem normal so that he could press the point just a bit further.
Slowly but surely, Loki worked to make himself the center of her world, the only thing in her world. The only one who cared about her, and who wasn't afraid to show it when she was acting rationally. Honestly, Loki had never understood what she was so afraid of. He wanted her mostly as she was, after all. Just...a little more pliant. Obedient. His.
But it was a process that went both ways, in a way. She'd become such a carefully controlled project that his fascination with her took on more than a bit of obsession, and one day, Loki found himself driven on to test his progress.
Leaving her alone for a particularly long time was a minor torment, but he did, only sending in food twice a day to make sure she was kept alive. Once he gauged that she was going sufficiently stir-crazy from isolation, however, Loki let himself in while she slept. He moved soundlessly through the room to settle himself down on the edge of her bed, reaching out to lightly stroke her cheek.
"Claudia? Wake up, pet."
Life happens!
She slept fitfully, those times she could sleep at all in the empty room. He'd found ways to punish her, before, when she slept without his permission, until it was only when exhaustion truly overcame her that she couldn't obey. Even then, her mind struggled to try to snap her back to wakefulness.
This time, however, even the need to follow the rules to avoid being punished for disobedience wasn't enough to wake her when her master came. The shift of the bed he allowed her started a slight rousing, and the touch of his hand, but it was the words that had her eyes snapping open, fear flashing in her eyes as she realized she'd slept once again.
"Sorry," she said, averting her gaze, almost cringing away from him. "I did not mean to sleep without permission." She wouldn't grovel, not to him, but the apology would make things easier, at least, it nearly always did before. But he'd always seemed to make it clear why she was wrong, why she should be his, what the rewards could be.
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"Yes, well." He sighed, clearly disappointed in her but graciously willing to overlook the slight just this once, with a dismissive wave of his hand. "I suppose it can't be helped. You are only human, after all." He took one of her hands in his and lifted it to his mouth, brushing his lips over the inside of her wrist, the backs of her fingers. "And this time, perhaps, the fault is not entirely yours'." He mostly punished her for sleeping without permission with dreams - more like horrifying nightmares - but this time, he'd interrupted her restless sleep with slightly more pleasant dreams. The better to make his absence ache even more upon waking.
"I expected too much of you. I forgot how much care you truly require from me. I left you alone much too long, pet, allowing myself to become entangled in my own affairs and neglecting my own responsibilities. And for that, my dear, I do apologize."
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That brush of lips, that gentleness made her shiver, awakening sensations she wanted to deny, but couldn't. Once, the thought of him touching her disgusted him, but he was the only one who did, the only one who could. She vaguely remembered a flash of dream where he'd been more, like a promise of a reward. It almost made her forget to listen to his words.
"Don't," she breathed, unable even in her own mind to know if she was telling him to stop touching her, kissing her hand, or that he shouldn't apologize. He confused her, left her so conflicted. She remembered she mustn't allow him her knowledge of the Warehouse, or any aid, but she couldn't easily remember why anymore. He was good to her, unless she'd been difficult.
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"Yes," he murmured, lacing their fingers together after that - a gesture that, while gentle, was also insistently intimate. "An apology does not suffice. You are, of course, correct." He moved to trail the fingers of his other hand in a slow, light caress down her chest, along her stomach, just a bit lower but not quite as low as he wanted. "And I did not come merely to apologize. Actions speak louder than words, do they not? And I mean to show you just how very dear to me you've become, at your worst and at your best."
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A spark of her nearly extinguished defiance made her pull away, meeting his gaze. "I didn't think you were into beastiality, master. Or is having sex with pets not taboo because you're a god?"
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His tone, however, didn't waver, and Loki moved closer even as she pulled away. "Keeping you at all is a taboo, is it not? Why should I concern myself with such things now?" At least she hadn't mentioned those idiot stories. And since she'd done him the favor of stating his intentions outright, Loki showed no more hesitations in moving his hand the rest of the way down to press brazenly between her legs. His other hand looped an index finger through her collar and gave a deliberate tug back towards him.
"Unless I've been mistaken, Claudia? Unless you would rather I...leave you alone once more, instead?"
His tone of voice made it clear - as far as Loki was concerned, it wasn't a choice between whether or not he would fuck her. It was a choice between whether or not he would fuck her now.
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At least when he was rough she could remember that she meant nothing to him but a means to an end, that if she ever gave in completely, it wouldn't matter if she lived, because everyone she loved would be dead or worse. Even when she could remember, it was hard not to give him what he wanted, let him have anything he wanted of her body.
It still made her pulse quicken, her breath catch when he brushed against her sex. It made her try to think how long it had been, since she'd had anyone else. The wall of defiance was nothing against the ache of needing to be touched, to be wanted. If he left, she had nothing, was nothing.
Feeling everything crumble yet again, she closed her eyes, leaning into that touch with self-loathing. "Stay, please..."
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Loki smiled down at her, lazy as a cat that had just brought its paw down on a particularly stubborn mouse. He leaned in close, moved to settle more firmly against her.] Good. [He brushed his lips over hers', pressed insistently with his hand in an effort to guide her legs apart.] Good girl. [Then he cupped her sex, squeezing possessively and rubbing her firmly, and his voice took on a note of a growl that betrayed his lust.] My Claudia.
[Then he kissed her, with a gentleness that was almost mocking, but an undeniable insistence well to deepen the kiss - a demand he would make with brushes of his tongue against her lips, and if that failed, the light bite of his teeth.]
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She trembled a little, afraid of what his touch was doing to her, how easily it seemed like he could just unmake her. And then he kissed her, and it was as soft as his hand between her legs was rough. It made her moan, opening her mouth to let him have entrance, yielding because she needed to yield. He could master her body, and she wondered if that would just be the beginning of the end, or the start of something even greater.
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He took his hand from between her legs as she spread them for him, but only because Loki took that as his cue to move on top of her, settling his body against hers' and kneeling between her legs - the better to make sure they stayed open if she suddenly rediscovered her hesitations, and to press a thigh firmly up against her pussy, rubbing slightly to apply friction he had no intention of letting up on any time soon. To get her bare would require pulling away, but for now, he simply savored the feeling of the girl beneath him, pinning her there ever-so-carefully with his weight as she slowly succumbed.]
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She wanted this, even if it had to be with him, because the thought of not having anything was worse than any punishment he could devise. As long as Loki never realized that, she could keept those small, secret parts of her life safe, and the people that guarded them. Maybe she was lost, but the others weren't, not yet, hopefuly not ever.
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With her defenses down like this, just a little bit of magic to help permanently impress his will upon hers' should do the job.
All the while, Loki continued pressing and rubbing against her sex. His hands found her body, roaming, possessive. Until he slid his hands beneath her shirt and up her torso to take hold of her breasts and lightly squeeze.
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A part of her had feared the day it would come to this, but that part had been torn away like so many of her defenses. Loki cared for her, even if it was the care one had towards a pet or a fine piece of art work, it was care. Even if he took that hated collar from around her neck, sent her home, he'd merely have to come to her and she would give herself over, willingly. Without him she would be nothing, withering away in his neglect.
"Please," she whispered against his mouth, voice breathy. "Please, Loki..."
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Loki kissed her soundly once more, silencing her just a moment longer, before he pulled away abruptly, sat back on his heels. His hands moved to begin working on tugging his clothes aside, the phantom pressure of her searching hands still on him.
"Undress," he ordered, eyes dark with lust, gaze never wavering from her.
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Still, she did as he told her, then knelt before him, trembling slightly as she struggled not to reach out before he did, because she didn't have the right. "Please," she repeated.
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It was clear that Loki's patient manipulations were paying off in spades now, however. He watched Claudia hungrily as she undressed, a wolf sizing up a particularly sweet rabbit. His hands remained steady, so that even with his more complicated clothing, Loki was undressed scant seconds before Claudia succeeded in doing so. He could see her grappling with the desire to surge forward...but she knew that was not her place.
Good girl. Loki smiled exultantly, and after just a second to let her stew, beckoned her near with a crook of his finger. The god sat with his legs open and parted, his cock erect and hard and aching.
"Show me what you want, my dear."
He wanted her to come to him. Take his cock inside. Take that step of what remained of her own free will.
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She had to come near enough to touch, to feel along the smooth skin of his inner thigh, feeling him pulse in time with the warm wetness between her legs. She didn't have any right to make demands, to do anything he didn't want, and he could stop her, leave her begging and untouched because all she had was what he gave to her.
She slid closer, drawing her body along his, her hips not quite in the right position for him to enter her, but just the feel of it made her moan. Claudia straddled his lap, and brushed her breasts against him, then looked up to meet those dark, dangerous eyes. If she drove herself onto him, even wet as she was, it would hurt, and she didn't know if it was right or not.
"Anything you want," she said, meaning it. She would do her best to please him. "My body is yours."
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He moaned, soft but shameless, as she pressed up against him, slid almost into place. Her body was soft and warm and just begging to be defiled. When she brushed her breasts along his chest, he slid a hand up her stomach to take hold of it. Loki gazed down at his pet with evident approval, taking in the sight of her, musing on her words. She was begging him to tell her how to fuck him, and it was perfect.
"Yes, it is." He agreed easily, his other hand skimming down her back to then take light hold of her hip. "And a fine treasure it is, Claudia. I mean to make very good use of it...and see that it is well taken care of" Deliberately, he shifted her into just the right position for him to enter her, if only she pushed down or he pushed up. The feeling of pressing against her entrance almost ruined his control against doing just that.
"I want you to ride me. Until you burn, until you come. I want you to take me in deeper and harder than you've ever had anyone before...or ever will again." He brushed his lips along her forehead in a gesture that was perversely meant to reassure. "It will only hurt a moment. Would you rather I pushed inside you, first?" His grip tightened slightly on her hip to punctuate his point, the offer to drag her down onto his cock so that she didn't have time to hesitate.
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She tried to push down, but tight as she was, it was hard to get anythign past her opening, to take him in. Even that made her bite her lower lip to keep from screaming out in mingled pain and pleasure. Claudia couldn't fail him, not now, not like this.
Taking a long, shuddering breath, she couldn't meet his gaze, feeling like she couldn't do more without help. "I...please..."
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"You don't have to be afraid of letting my hear you. I want to hear everything, darling." Wanted to hear her scream his name, whimper as he filled her, and the exact difference between how she sounded in pleasure and pain.
His mouth trailed along her jaw, nipping lightly, wanting nothing more than to mark her skin. His other hand trailed down to take hold of her other hip in preparation. Loki would even murmur a count in her ear - one, two, three - before he pulled her suddenly, firmly down, driving up past her body's resistance and into her sex in the same moment.
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Loki wasn't that, but he did want her, maybe even needed her for something, although she still didn't know what. The collar he'd placed on her meant that even when she tilted her head to give him better access as he nipped her skin, there were some sensitive spots he couldn't reach. The thought of him marking her, something to remind her of this ran goosebumps along her skin.
It almost distractracted her from the count, but when he drove into her, she couldn't help a wordless scream, arching as he filled her more completely than anyone before. Her nails bit deep into the skin of his shoulders, needing to hold on, to be held as each deep, shuddering breath trembled through her, around him.
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He couldn't hold her, but let her cling to him, welcomed it. Both his hands were holding tightly to her hips instead to the point that his nails bit into her skin. All the better to drag her slowly the rest of the way down until he was well and truly hilted inside her, their bodies pressed flush together. All the while, he murmured to her, low and heated. "Beautiful girl. My Claudia. Just a bit more, just a bit deeper, Norns you feel wonderful around me. Good girl, good, you scream so beautifully..."
It was dizzying, how close she was, how tight. He could feel every beat of her heart as a pulse around him, her every breath shuddering her body against his.
"Feel me," he growled to her, before nipping lightly at her earlobe. He did hold her then, held her close and still for a moment. He wanted her to fully accept how it felt to take him...because this would not be the only time. Almost certainly not even the only time tonight. "Feel how deep I am. How you're stretched open around me. I'm going to fill you so full that you'll forget where you end and I begin. I want to drive out everything but my mark on your body, and I'm going to train your beautiful body until it fits me perfectly."
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"Yes," she breathed, rolling her hips, moving against him, just a little, his heat driving into her like a blade, cutting through any resistance she had to this. "Loki, god, yes..."
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It was only his voice and his touch for now, but it wasn't as though Loki was unpracticed in reducing mortals to whimpering pleas with those alone. In a while, though, when she truly fell apart, magic would seal her fate and finish binding her to him.
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And then, almost like a switch had been thrown, her body gave that final push, opening wide as she came, writhing, nails leaving bloody furrows on his back, screaming out wordlessly as her vision sparkled around the edges with the strength of what he was doing.
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Loki didn't relent even as the came, wringing every last second out of her release and sucking another hard red mark into her neck. He hissed in mingled pleasure, pain, and satisfaction as her nails dug into his back. It took a supreme effort of will to stop, even for a moment. But when she was spent and trembling, Loki did, stilling his hard, aching cock inside her for a moment. The better to pull away enough to meet her gaze, tipping her chin up so she would be sure to meet his.
"Who do you belong to?" His eyes were hooded and still burning with lust. His voice was a low growl, that vibrated with harmonics of magic power. All the better to impress his will down upon her weakened, newly pliant mind. He meant to carve the answer into her consciousness as deeply as her own name, and Claudia might even be able to feel it, as tendrils of mist creeping through her thoughts.
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"I am yours," Claudia said, and somewhere, deep in the quiet recesses of her thoughts, that tiny piece that still struggled to defy him wept.
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"Yes," Loki whispered fiercely, leaning forward to press a firm kiss to her lips. "You are mine. And what a fine prize you make." There was undisguised admiration in his voice. The fond affection in his gaze, mingling with dark lust, was even sincere. It was only that Loki often found it almost impossible to feel any sort of affection for things he didn't own.
His hold on her shifted in anticipation of what would come next, meaning to steady her as he coaxed Claudia down onto her back without pulling out of her. All the same, he was unable to resist touching her just a bit further, and bent his head to lick a long, wet stripe up between her breasts before murmuring: "Lay back, pet. I hope you don't think I'm finished with you."
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He guided her down, and even shifting that much made her moan as the angle changed slightly between them. She knew that he would make her writhe and scream, unable to think with the pleasure of him filling her, pounding flesh into flesh.
"I never want you to be..."
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"You feel wonderful," he murmured, voice halfway between a whisper and a growl. Loki gave a slow roll of his hips, drawing almost all the way out of her before thrusting hard back in. She was slick from already coming once, and it was easier than ever to fill her. The pace he set was slow, at first, deliberately so. "You sound divine. Especially when you scream my name."
He bowed his head to fix his mouth just over one breast to suck in another mark.
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She couldn't imagine why she'd resisted for so long, because his regard was like the sun, and she would bask in it even if she burned. "Please, Loki, please..."
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That undeniable knowledge was as desperately arousing to Loki as the feel of Claudia's body pliant and wanting beneath his. Loki burned and ache, feeling himself nearing the edge, his mind empty of everything but the frantic desire to wring another climax out of both of them.
"I'm going to come inside you," he growled in her ear as he drove into her. "You've finally proven yourself worthy of that, pet. Worthy of me to truly claim you. You are mine, Claudia, truly mine, and I will never let you go."
Loki pushed in once, twice more, and then with a long, loud moan that he muffled against her chest, he buried himself to the hilt inside her one last time and came long and blissfully hard.
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That he'd taken her like this, taught her to be his, claimed her in every way she knew to express was like a dream, but she knew it was real, and that she'd give anything to never lose this again.
Re: Loki | MCU | OTA
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Those commitments were long past.
Who remembered what the argument was this time? But he reached for the often used name calling, a whore spreading her legs for everyone who looked at her twice and she derided him for pranks and trickery and fooling others to have his way with them. An old song with words long memorized.
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